I Hate That I Love You

An eclectic mix of happy and sick

A simultaneous reaction of nervousness and excitement

A chaotic dance between yes and no

A newness in-sync with familiarity

Thats the state of me

Ever since I met you 

A pandemonium of emotions

All contradictions within me 

I shiver at the thought of you

That very thought makes me dreamy

I feel lightheaded and out of focus

Yet every detail's imprinted clearly

My life does not stop, come calamity

Still I stand still for you

Too much to do,not a moment is free, 

But my time freezes around you

I hate that I love you 

Though I never want to be free of you

I hate anyone having power over me

But I just want to surrender to you

A smile from you makes my day

A kiss erases all other memories

I don't know if it's love or infauation

I just know I want you to hold me