The duality of feelings in
my situation mesmerises me
On one hand I'm somewhat
lonely
And on the other hand I
enjoy this feeling of walking alone
I miss people I can trust
But it's also refreshing
how much I was craving such loneliness
I feel intelligent because
I made it here
And I feel incredibly
stupid when I see how I just barely did- and how many smart and amazing people
there are from all over the world.
I often have to face my
inadequacies
Yet it's not a negative
reproach
Because I'm discovering
myself as I never have
It's like I'm really
seeing myself for the first time
There are so many people
It's very disconnected-
and yet there are these almost invisible strong connections uniting everyone in
their solitude, in their differences.
There are noises-
overwhelming sounds
And I still seem to be
hearing myself more clearly than ever before
There is a fear of the
new- the unknown
And yet there's this tiny
brave heart in me which is cherishing every second of venturing into the
strange and amazing
I'm standing alone on this
bridge beautifully illuminated by blue lights as if complementing the night
skies above
There are disturbances-
movements distractions
And yet I've never
concentrated better
Never been more in control
of my thoughts
Or had greater clarity about
life.
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