Open Doors

I opened my door to happiness, shutting sorrows tightly out

And in streamed confusion

I opened the door to welcome my dreams, no self-doubt allowed

But all I got was an overwhelming realization

I opened the door to ambitions, no time to look back

And rushed in competition and greed

I opened my door to answers, confident they would come

And received in turn more questions

I opened my door to love, feeling high

And complimentarily got jealousy and insecurity

I opened my door to friendship, surely it would bring security

And in came doubt and self-defense

I opened my door to knowledge; I was so hungry to learn

And with it came a sense of inferiority

I opened my door to faith, to believe in anything

And found myself questioning all my beliefs

I opened my door to God, when I was sure he was near

And was frustrated when I couldn’t find him

I opened my door to good, knowing someone counted deeds somewhere

And was angered at no appreciation

All this while I braced the door- with all the strength I had

To prevent from entering any negativity, any sorrows, anything bad

I shut my door to questions, I daren’t allow misery

No hardships, no obstacles, simply living in bliss

But when I opened my door to positivity, in came all of it anyway

And with incoming negativity, the realization of my blessings increased.