The day was inconsequential, the timing, worse than horrible
when Allan Potofsky walked into me. I know what you must be thinking, no, that
is not a grammatical error, for he didn’t walk into my life, but right into me,
as if I were invisible (though I assure you I am far from it). At roughly 26,
with an average height, average build, average colour, he was truly, well-
average.
So average indeed that if the timing had been any better, I
would’ve have forgotten his face within seconds, but alas it was not to be! His
face was etched into my very mind for as long as I can remember for he chose to
crash into my life at the very moment, timed precisely to seconds, when I was
about to be hit by a bus.
Once again you read correctly- he walked into me right when
the bus was about to hit me- the shell shocked driver hit the breaks, the bus
spiraled, tyres screeched, its rear end lunging forward unbelievably fast- at
that moment I had the horrible revelation that it was going to hit him. I tried
to shout, to warn him, but all sounds failed me. Time slowed down as if to mock
me in my misery, so I could experience every single detail of the end- the
precise moment of the hit, like when you jump from a cliff face down, knowing
exactly when to intake your last breath- except in this case I knew it not for
myself but for this average guy who had just walked into me.
Relativity is a bitch, and just as time had slowed down, it
exploded with the speed of a thousand years, and before I could see it
happening, it was over, my eyes slowly adjusting to the monochromatic pale of
the hospital. As my eyes opened, there was only one question haunting my mind,
although deep down I already knew the answer. A lady in white was approaching;
my brain struggled to process the information and slowly the response came- the
nurse. ‘What happened to the….man who…’ my voice trailed off, I was unable to
complete the sentence. ‘ I am sorry sir, was he a friend?’ ‘No, I didn’t know
him’- further guilt like tiny menacing rats clawing at my insides- a complete
stranger- whom I had branded as average and forgettable- died saving me- even
when I didn’t want to be saved- what a sad waste of a life.
Another question popped- ‘Have you indentified…what was his
name?’ ‘No, there was nothing left of his face to get a positive ID, besides he
didn’t even have any documents on him. We are trying to place him, but it seems
improbable. You didn’t happen to see his face did you?’ ‘No’ the reply came
automatically- I don’t know why I had lied- every little intricate detail of
his face was etched in my memory. As I was about to rectify the lie- a hundred
good reasons sprang up in my mind as to why I shouldn’t- unnecessary questions,
maybe trips to the police station and more importantly digging up of my past-
something I did not want to deal with. Lost in my thoughts I almost didn’t hear
the nurse ‘so how did it happen? What were you doing in the middle of the
road?’
I began remembering. A
damp February morning I returned home, my mood starkly contrasting the gloom in
the weather. I was going to meet my parents after quite a while and decided to
give them a surprise, by making dinner for them. The delicious aroma tickled my
nostrils and teased my stomach- ‘any minute now’ I told myself to curb my
hunger minutes passed and then hours, I was worried by now and started calling,
there was no reply, and then two Law Enforcement Officers entered. ‘We are very
sorry to inform you that there has been an accident.’ My senses went numb. I
travelled to my happy place, oblivious to the world. Denial overtaking, the
agony however wasn’t convinced. I too felt like id been hit by a truck-
hyperventilation, shock, brain freeze, and gradually the pain of acceptance
hit. Neither had survived. I was now an orphan. ‘Orphan’ I pondered over it-
every time the phrase was used it seemed so distant; I had never imagined it
would ever be applicable to me. I lost all track of time, day turned into night
and then it was dawn, but the gloom never left the weather or my heart.
I don’t know how much time had passed; it was yet another
damp day when two grim looking people entered. Heavily built and
extraordinarily tall, they were nothing less than giants. ‘We know this is
probably a bad time but your father was under heavy debt’. Confusion. ‘Are you
from some bank?’ ‘No, the bank couldn’t, lend him money as he had no assets, so
he borrowed from our boss, Mr. Polakov. With his unfortunate demise you now owe
Mr. Polakov hundred thousand zloty plus interest.’ ‘A hundred thousand! - But
what would he do with...’ I stopped midway- my education of course. I had
wondered how he was suddenly able to arrange money to pay the exorbitant
amount, but he simply wouldn’t discuss it with me. ‘ Where will I get a hundred
thousand from?’ ‘Well you can begin with your house of course. In light of
recent events, Mr. Polakov has allowed you one week’s time, even though your
grant expired a month ago.’ ‘ What if I am unable to pay?’ ‘Mr. Polakov doesn't
believe in inability, simply excuse. Oh and don’t try to run.’ The larger of
the men flashed a vicious smile and then they left.
I began walking- to nowhere in particular. I needed time,
time to think, time to process. In a daze I ran through all the facts again-
mama and tata dead, me-penniless, heavy debt, no means to pay- loud honks and
whizzing colours brought me back to physical reality. Oh god! I was in the
middle of the road. My first instinct was to run to safety, but a second more
powerful thought took over- safety- what safety? They were going to kill me anyway
if I couldn’t repay my loan, my chances of survival were nil, at least this way
I could die on my own terms. I heaved a deep breath, saw the bus approaching-
its yellow earth shades were somewhat calming to my nerves. I resigned
myself...fully aware that this was it when that man walked into me.
To the nurse, however, I replied ‘Oh I was busy on my phone
and didn’t realize where I was walking’ ‘Well, you were in luck, though I cant
say the same for the other man, May God bless his soul. Anyway I just spoke to
the doctor and since you weren’t hurt, you're being discharged. Some officers
came to talk to you but you were unconscious, besides they’ve already marked it
is an accident, so I don’t think they will bother you. Should I call someone
from your family to pick you up?’ ‘Family’ it seemed like such an alien term.
‘No I’ll be fine. Thank you.’
I got out of bed and left the hospital with a single
resolution in mind. I had to find out who he was, I had to make sure his family
knew, I really wanted to help them before I gave up on my life. With a sketch
from a professional, it was a surprisingly easy task to place him. I began from
the place of the accident, and a local shopkeeper almost immediately identified
him as Allan Potofsky. ‘Allan Potofsky’, I repeated to myself, taking in the
flavor of the name, exploring it, feeling its depths. I now had a name to go
with the picture in my mind. I talked to others in the vicinity that could
identify him; they pointed me to his apartment. As far as anyone knew he lived
alone, however no one could be certain for he had recently shifted here.
Desperate to find out more, I went to the state archive of
Warsaw and typed in his name. The results were numerous. I jumped form photo to
photo, my heartbeat increasing at every new result in anticipation of seeing
his face, but to my dismay, he wasn’t there. I checked and rechecked through
all state listings in Poland, even in the foreign immigrants, but to no avail.
It was beginning to seem like Allan was a ghost.
My curiosity got the better of me- I had to find out, I
decided to break into his flat. Thank God for Google and you tube, I learnt all
about bump keys and it was easy enough to get in. His apartment had the basic
bare minimums necessities, indicating that either he had hardly been here long,
and wasn’t planning on staying either. There was no computer, laptop, or phone and
once again I began a thorough search. I searched through his cupboard and
drawers, I almost turned his place upside down but it was no help. Finally
frustrated I was going to walk out, when I heard a creak. I bent down to
investigate the sound, and realized it was a loose floorboard. I had an
intuition and pried the floorboard away. There hidden from view was a small
biscuit can. I opened it and turned it upside down. Out came various things,
among them a passport- more specifically Allan Potofsky’s passport, but
curiously enough there was no picture on the passport.
I found this strange and rummaged through the other
contents- an old torn passport size photo of a face I didn’t recognize, some
thousand zloty, a few coins, a stamp, and a new passport photo of the man I
knew as Allan. I opened the stamp, and once again to my absolute stupefaction
it was exactly the one stamped over the photo on the passport!
Dire confusion- too much information- my brain once again
struggled to cope-and then it slowly came- Allan wasn’t Allan at all! As this
sunk in, all my troubles seemed to vanish- no debts to pay, no suicidal thoughts,
no worries in life- everything fit perfectly into place like pieces of a
puzzle. Anything else about Allan, I didn’t know, except he was an angel sent
by God. The most important question- who is Allan Potofsky? – That is me!
a little too much for me to clearly understand but the storyline and the suspense is good- makes you want to read on. you have potential- maybe you should try to develop it
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